I WANT TO DIE!!!!! :( :( :( :( I HATE LIVING LIKE THIS!!!!!!?

Ughh..I know what you're going through. Right now, things seem bad, but they WILL get better. Forget what your cousin, or anyone else says, none of that matters. Focus on yourself and surround yourself with supportive people. Make a plan of what you want to accomplish, and do it. Try to think positive (I know it's hard to during times like these), and trust that in the end, everything will turn out the way it's supposed to. You're only 20 years old. There are people out there twice your age who have done less with their lives than you have so far. Just take a deep breath, remind yourself that what doesn't kill you, simply makes you stronger, and relax!